Do you ever feel like you get lost...? You spend so much time being efficient and taking care of everyone else, and you try not to be a big pain in the ass...try not to be needy or moody or high maintainance or whatever...And you feel like you've lost yourself?
What does it mean to be a woman and a mother? How do you do it?
How do you find the right balance of taking care of everyone else and having someone take care of you? How do you attain that feeling of independence and maturity and self-sufficient-ness when you still need that feeling of someone taking care of you?
Maybe I'm just a lunatic. I'm reading Captivating; Unveiling the Mysteries of a Woman's Soul by John and Stasi Eldredge, and I find that I totally agree with everything that they write about...but I didn't know it before...or I just couldn't pinpoint my needs before. Does that make sense?
I think as women, we have an innate need to be pursued, wanted, desired, fought for, romanced, and cared for...but at the same time, we long to play a part in a story bigger than us, to be needed, to be strong, to be independent and dependable. But how do you do that? How do you do that and not turn into a whiny, complicated mess?
I just don't know. Ideas, anyone?