Thursday, September 17, 2009


It's been really crazy here.  Not in a bad way, I just feel like I haven't had time to breathe lately.  Bryan has been out of town the last 2 weeks (well, Tuesday-Friday) and it is just monumentally hard to find any time to be anything but Mommy.

So hard, in fact, that I've taken to getting up at 5am so that I have an hour or so to take a shower, drink a cup of coffee, and read in solitude.  Frankly, if I could get to bed before midnight, I'd wake up earlier than that.  The chaos begins at 6:15 when everyone starts getting up, the daycare kids get here before 7, therapies for 2 hours twice a week in the mornings...everyone is on a different schedule, so if you THINK that everyone sleeps at the same time here, you are sadly sadly mistaken...pick up the kids from preschool at noon (Ian and Chase go, but my 2 daycare kids and Gavin don't), lunch, cleaning, entertaining, diapers, daycare pick-up, piano lessons, grocery shopping, church, dinner, playing outside, baths, teeth brushing, bedtimes, cleaning up the kitchen/entire house, random waking up at night...oh, and nursing an infant.

I imagine this is what someone strung out on crack must feel like as the high is wearing off.  Deflated.  Tired.  Out of breath.  A little fuzzy on the details of everything.

I also feel like my conversational skills are severely lacking.  If I'm not talking about who is using what potty words, or hollering "No, Chasey!", then honestly, I don't think I could hold my end of the conversation up at this point.  I kind of wish I could record what I say all day long, because I am pretty sure I repeat the same 5 things constantly throughout the day...Do you have to go potty?  Are you listening to me?  Chasey, no climbing!  Stop swinging Blue Dog!  Gentle with Gavin!

The kids are good.  I just miss Bryan.  And I think I need to recharge a little bit.


Mandi said...

maybe you should take up crack. might ease the edgyness. :)

carydip said...

I'll be there in 2 weeks and will be ready, wiling and able to HELP you!! OK? PLease think of me as a helper not a guest. I'm a great holder, rocker, reader, player! Can't wait to see you all! Love~Mom

Becky said...

Your description about feeling like a crack addict is hilarious. I hope Bryan is home for awhile and I know long term this new job is a great thing! Glad you got some sleep last night!

Chris said...

I'm exhausted just reading this! Glad to read above that HELP is on the way in a couple of weeks.

Hang In there!

Nikki said...

I cannot believe you have 3 kids of your own, one a nursing infant at that, and you watch two other kids during the day. It blows my mind that you function at all. Even if Brian was home every night. You are a strong, strong woman.